Leaving. Moving. Change.
"All these words stir up a whirlpool of emotions and other words. Excitement, Sadness. Joy. Fear. And worst of all, they usually hit us all at once.
A week from today I am moving nearly 5,000 miles away from the place I have called home my whole life, Central Florida, and relocating to Hawaii. Leaving my best friends that I have grown up for the last 10 years. Changing the job that I loved for the last 5 years to something new that I don’t have that much experience in.
It would be a lie to say that I am not excited for the new adventures ahead. But if I am honest, I'm mostly afraid. Afraid of not fitting in. Afraid of feeling alone. Afraid of my friends back home forgetting about me. Afraid of not being good enough for the people out there. I know most of these fears are foolish might seem foolish, but that is what the unknown can do. It can make fears look like the only future.
It becomes less about the glass being half full or empty and more about doubting what is in the glass and wondering if it's even worth drinking.
Yet then I'm reminded of the journey I'm on. And, most importantly, who is with me. I am about to leave my job that I love, my friends that I love and my family whom I love. But I am not leaving the God who loves me. And He is not going anywhere.
The only reason it is hard to leave is because God has blessed me with people and a place worth missing.
Before David fights Goliath he declares, “The Lord who rescued me from the claws of the lion and the bear will rescue me from this Philistine!” (1 Samuel 17:37)
David does not fear the fight. Instead, he remembers God’s faithfulness.
When fear grabs hold of your future, remember, the bears and the lions God has delivered you from.
Let God’s past faithfulness light your future fears on fire.
As C.S. Lewis once said, “There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”
I couldn't find this to be truer now in my life.
Leave the right things behind.
Move ahead knowing that God already is.
Change all that you can to draw closer to our unchangeable God."